Long story short;
Woke up today in a fainting condition; while I always feel lightheaded these few months today I needed conscious effort to keep breathing in the morning and I had another such fainting spell on the train coming back to work; I can't risk driving in this condition.
My mom refuses to answer my phone calls so if I went into crisis god knows anything would happen. I get incredulous stares from passers-by who respectfully step aside as I pass. I'm very pale and rely on sugary foods in the morning and evening to try and stave off disaster.
I'm fighting battles on many fronts, from my legal work to social matters, securing financing for my new rental residence and convincing my mum to be agreeable to the move (as she just stopped going to work all of a sudden and I can't afford such a huge place all by myself) and also to be there for me if I do call for aid.
Don't ask me to "go out more", when just my normal chores cause this much distress.
And don't reply me saying you "don't have these troubles". Of course you don't.
You're not Carmen who has to die fighting for survival just like her sister Marta.
I can't seek medical help either; there's no one else keeping the money flowing.
And that means my Build contributions might be the last thing I have to show for my life.
PS: This is not a drill.
Woke up today in a fainting condition; while I always feel lightheaded these few months today I needed conscious effort to keep breathing in the morning and I had another such fainting spell on the train coming back to work; I can't risk driving in this condition.
My mom refuses to answer my phone calls so if I went into crisis god knows anything would happen. I get incredulous stares from passers-by who respectfully step aside as I pass. I'm very pale and rely on sugary foods in the morning and evening to try and stave off disaster.
I'm fighting battles on many fronts, from my legal work to social matters, securing financing for my new rental residence and convincing my mum to be agreeable to the move (as she just stopped going to work all of a sudden and I can't afford such a huge place all by myself) and also to be there for me if I do call for aid.
Don't ask me to "go out more", when just my normal chores cause this much distress.
And don't reply me saying you "don't have these troubles". Of course you don't.
You're not Carmen who has to die fighting for survival just like her sister Marta.
I can't seek medical help either; there's no one else keeping the money flowing.
And that means my Build contributions might be the last thing I have to show for my life.
PS: This is not a drill.